Hello again.
It has been very, VERY long since my last post and for the sake of avoiding a cliche recollection of how, why and what exactly happened in my life: I shall in stead bullet-point my past 8 years.
Since 2013 my boyfriend and I
* got Engaged * Married * had our first (and only) Child*
After January 2016
* I developed Post-Partum depression
* Found out I have Adult-ADHD
* Found out that I am Autistic ( kind of a shocker!)
Several other things happened in between, including:
* marital issues * high-conflict Divorce mediation, starting 2021 * child custody evaluations *
* an enormous amount of Animosity in the household * Hurt, Sadness * and Healing! *
These past 5 years have been an extremely difficult process and many times I felt helpless and flooded by all the uncertainty and tons of Social confusion. I'm often exhausted.
But. I manage to find new sources of recovery, energy, assistance, great guidance, good emotional support... and a little bit of Magic ;)
Since our son was born I studied self-healing methods, I read books on EQ (Emotional intelligence), found ways to clear my mind and still have times where I fall down and have to get back up, but the difficult times occur less frequently and the intensity is less and shorter-lived. So, I grow more hopeful.
I found essential assistance in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, Youtube videos (on various subjects) and discovered a tool called Enneagram coaching :)
I struggle through Motivational speeches and religiously take my ADHD medication. ALL of this helps. I keep ALL the big and little tools that help me to get better and then i lose them in the clutter and later find them again
The new-found guidance on my future path makes me excited and creates passion and energy for me to tackle this future :)
Now I am re-inventing myself and I have asked: "What IF i feared Nothing! " and lo and behold, I am starting to discover a way of achieving this No-fear mindset. A new "Life Magic".
The story continues and I will not find enough time to write all that I wish to, but I attempt to record most of it and distill what I have learned in the past 10 to 12 years into blog posts. Things have been extremely tough and I still have ups and downs, but with reduced intensity. The down times pass faster.
I celebrate every small Improvement, even when others refuse to acknowledge or appreciate it!
And I start to find more hours of Fearing Nothing!
So, I sign off by saying I wish you all the very best and many moments of feeling Strong. It is not always possible, but at some stage it will be if you only hold on.
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